My Bad Decisions by Carrie Ann Ryan

Author:Carrie Ann Ryan [Ryan, Carrie Ann]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Carrie Ann Ryan

Chapter 12

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“You doing okay?” Dillon asked. I looked up at him and nodded.

“I’m doing fine,” I said as I pulled a beer out of the fridge. We were in the kitchen, the others all out in the living room as we ate appetizers and got ready for dinner. The eight of us had decided to do a big group meal since none of us worked that night and had time off.

It was nice to schedule time like this, and I enjoyed it, even if things were still awkward. The group had all apologized to me more than once for how they reacted when they heard about the pregnancy. And, frankly, I still didn’t blame them. It was a shock, and they should be upset with me. I was still angry with myself. I had changed the course of Natalie’s life, and it was my fault. I shouldn’t have wanted her as I did, and yet I couldn’t change things. We couldn’t go back to us not having slept together.

The fact that we were still sleeping together notwithstanding.

“I am sorry for how I reacted,” Dillon said, looking down at his beer.

It was a craft brew and one of Dillon’s brother’s favorites. They served it at the bar, and Dillon had brought a case to the house. It was just a thoughtful thing to do—something Dillon did often. That was just who the guy was. He thought about us, cared about us, and always made sure we knew that.

There was no way I could ever be angry about how they’d reacted when they heard. Not with how they treated me every other day. They were good people, and I knew that. I just hoped they reminded themselves of it.

“I wasn’t angry at you guys when you said it.”

Dillon raised a brow. “You stormed off.”

I shrugged and took a sip of my beer. “I needed to think about what the fuck I had done. Natalie and I are going to have a kid. And while we say we’re making plans and figuring out our roles, we aren’t. We suck at this.”

“Do you want to talk about it?”

I looked over my shoulder and heard the others talking and laughing in the other room. “Maybe not right now.”

“You’ve got it,” he said after a moment. “But I’m here if you need me.”

“Thanks,” I whispered.

“Natalie wasn’t expecting this, and I wasn’t expecting her. We’ll find a way to make this work. Yet, sometimes, I feel like all I’m doing is making mistake after mistake.” I hadn’t meant to say the words, especially after I’d just told him I didn’t want to talk about it, and Dillon gave me a soft smile.

“That’s how I feel every day with Elise, just lucky that she stays with me.”

“You’re a good man, Dillon. Of course, she stays with you.”

“I don’t feel like that’s always the case, though. We all make mistakes. We’re human. You’re going to be a dad. Damn, that’s just so crazy. I mean, my brothers are all in the process of having kids or thinking about it, and now my friends are.

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